†heart†

Some people come into our life but she/he quickly go...

Some stay awhile,

make a scar

on our heart

we are never, ever be the same...

loving some1 is really hard.

why I'm stil alive but my heart deing,

for  some1..

love really cruel and heartless..

because when you love some1..

their is nothing in our mind

onli You and Me

in the dream world...

Don't let she/he down..

it really hard to find the person that really love us..

apriciate every second, minit and every moment..

Loving You Owes.

†party†

I love party.... rili hapi party wit my best frend....

in the same time... I oso thk about her...

i dunno y...

myb my brain got problem...

nevermind.... I knw this is hard for me...

I still loving her...

aslong she happy...

then I will owes be happy to her...

MY heart will never ever change...

SOoooooo......

let party so i can help myself happy....

I love U = Y33y33

†she sick†

she sick le... ystrdy she told me
i was very wory about her...
if i was beside her now...
i will tak k of her.. giv her medicine and drink more water....
I will cook 4 her....

I rili wory about her..
I love her so much...
but all I can do onli hear and watch her...
I will pray 4 u...
I will owes b by urside where ever u ar...
I love her more den my life...

†I beg and plead†

sumtime I try to beg her wit all my heart... but i fell emberessing ...
ntg to say.... i rili love her so much wit all my heart...
plsss i beg and plead... wit all my heart and soul...
i hope God will giv me a chance...
plsss... plsss...

†A letter 4 U†

Dear, Yeeyee

            this is the story of the 1st and the last time that i had fall in love with a beutiful, cute and complicated women who inhalf in my soul. I prety sure that you gona leave me  tomoro. When we were togethe their is many happiness that I had from you, it realy hard to understand what in your mind. You will owes be a women of my life, the onli man that I'm mv is the man that can win your heart that I owes believe that it my destiny to be that man. So we never each other again, when you out walking 1day and you feel something present beside you..... That could be me loving you where ever I'm

†separation†

when i close my eyes i think that you

stand in front of me, just as when we are first

quit alone after a long separation,

and have not yet kissed each other,

but stand and feel our breaths, and bodies

quietly touch each other, and feel beforehand

the kiss coming, and tthe whole world seems

full of cream, jam and dizzyness

there is no grief, no sorrow,

no despair, no languor,

no dejection, no dismay,

no absence scarcely can there be,

for those who love as we do...

†Yesterday, suden wan call her†

yesterday i go out whole day... nico N ray bring they gf.. it a sweet thing i thk so... we go 1b... I keep making they laught every time... I like see my friend owes happy.. they spend me many cuz I alone... but I dun wan... and suden my last time frm5 frend that admire me call me suden... they wan bring me out but i say I cnt... "cuz I with my girlfrend"..
then Nico angry say I very stupid... why got girl wan go out with u dun wan... then i say I dun wan toO... Haha how stupid is me...
Then i walk around leave my frend awhile... suden I saw 1 shirt wa very nice.. the word in the shirt is "DOn't trust girl"... I wanna buy but the size is XL... and i ask they say the shirt is last 1 edi... it ok, mybe God wan me to trust a girl^^... then i turn again I find 1 shirt so cool... red colour.. "killing ape is my habit", ape is monkey oo dun 4get.. I buy size M.. fit 4 me erm price Rm45.50 but discount 10% onli rm40.50... If like tat no nid discount...
after tat wtch MV till 7++pm... den home

In my mind I keep thk her... i say to myself should i call her ask anythg or say sory or anythg else.. I know she realy angry with me.. I'm very sory.. frm bottom of my heart.. i rili dun wan to hurt sum1 that i rili love...

at night we go out drunk N I smoke.... but 2day I rili control my smoke... i dun smoke to much... den raymond call kenneth come... he come den ask me to sing... ^^very shy... he give the song chinese song.. "my heart owes be with you" N 1 song is a " I miss u Baby"... they say i sing very well...
I sing with all my broken heart... den ray N my oth frend drunk le.... so faz==... onli 10botol for 1 ppl... So wierd ysterday i dun fell i drunk and most weird nico start smoke... i ask him why.. he say cuz about his gf... i dunno why girl owes hurt guy like us...

anyway I love U so much yeeyee frm me CoNaL..
take care owes just find me if need help,
I love u frend... erm actually love U more then friend haha..

†She Gone†

She rili love him ma... she rili love nicholas...
she rili want him... did she mean it...
I knw nicholas is better thn me...

†She hate me, Plsss I rili love U†

I knw she rili hate me le... i hope nicholas was better guy for her...
I had make my confecion with paster she knw wat hapen...

I rili cnt let her go..
I rili cnt let her go..
I will try so she will Be hapi with sum1 that love her last few month..
I saw her owes sit with him...
so hurt and unexpecteble...

from my deep broken heart i say,
I realy love you so much...
I realy love you..
I realy weak le..
I cry in my heart..
all the time..
I rili sad...
from my eye i looking at her...
there ntg can change my heart..
it been awhile...

I owes crying everytime when I write my blog to her...
it rili pain..
I will keep on writing even i was crying...
I try to chill my heart...
I try to stop smoke n drunk...
I try ooOO

†I make she angry†

myb i so ego wit myself..... i rili sory
myb i so stupid to myself... i rili sory
myb i not a better guy...... i rili sory

i rili sory hun...
but 1 thing is i dunno how to lie...
U know all bout me..
about my bad or gud habit...
sumtime i juz cnt let u go...
cz my heart already stick wit U...
i listen to the chinese song
"ni na me ai ta, wei se me pu pa ta lui sia"

plss forgive me wat i had done plsss

†she fell hapi ever after, n i wil sad 4ever†

she hapi jz 4 her... i fell sad on wat she done to me.. she fell nthg whn she wan to leave me... but i fell everythg in tis heart.. she jz slumber like nthg hapen between me n her in her life... but i rili sad

here another pity, there anothere chance
evrythg tat could't change...

†Already gone†

†Already gone†

†past is past†

everythg is past... everythg had hapen... everythg is gone...
she owes hasitate to be wit me, ntg can change

I'd never gone with the wind

Just let it flow

Let it take me where it wants to go

Till you open the door there's so much more

I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly but I couldn't find wings

But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I watched from a distance as you

Made life your own

Every sky was your own kind of blue

And I wanted to know how that would feel

And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see

You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Baby you showed me what living is for

I don't want to hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Crazier, crazier

in this heart i onli have her...

sum1 better kill tis broken heart..

cuz if it broken it will broke to a thousand pieces...

it hard to be heal...

sumthg stupid in the brain...
bt heart is not stupid as my brain...
sum kind of  love tat never cum truth...
1 thg tat i cnt 4gt is U
2 time U had broke my heart
3 word tat i owes say to U but U never say to me
4 me u is the onli 1
5 time u had change ur mind since u ask me to wait U
i cum to top jz catch u...
but whn i cum u never wait me at the top..
and now i alone on the top of the montain...
i saw everythg wat u doin frm the of the montain...
hoping tat u leave hapily at thr..
hoping tat u will cum to catch me back...
frm heart to heart..
frm eye to eye..
frm lip to lip...
i will mean it everythg...
i dun wn be selfish...
i will let u go for ur goodness of ur life...
i will help u even u ar not mine...

plss kill my sadness^6....

†Nothing else i can say†

I thk 8dot is speacial to me... it juz a lie,
the day tat she say to me... she tel me tat 8dot is very special
it juz 4me n 8dot was for us....

But now she change wat she say to me...

Nothing special but make me more hurt...

I hope she rili know wat she saying to me...

She lie...

She lie...

She lie...

I stil remember wat she say...

GoD 4give wat she have done to me...

Nothing else i can say...

I hope she realize...

I hope she rili go to chuch to praise GoD...

I never lie to her, i tell her everything wat bad of me and the gud of me...

I rili stupid, i tell my frnd bout tat 8dot... i tell thm she say is speacial 4me... even her bestfrnd oso knw but wat can i do....

nothing else i can say... nothing speacial 4me... juz a lie it juz lie

†Song†

I wish I hope that she know about this song^^
I try n try but i still cannot get what she wan..
I hope this song make she understand...

†Good N Bad about her†

Ermmm..... i start from the bad thing 1st, bad thing bout her, she easy belif wat ppl say n it more worst if she keep change her mind^^.... it rili hard to knw wat she thking sumtime i fell i belif to her bt sumtime it hard to belif, like sumthg tat cn fell in my heart tat sumthg wrong... But the good thg bout her i fall in love wit her haha... Did she knw tat i rili love her~~... nvm wat is hapen is after... haha i knw stupid my frend oso say me stupid^^... but even worst== thy say me not rili loving her....haix it ok, it between me n GOD onli knw wat hapen... i leave my heart to her, all she need to do is care for it^^....

†I'm goin†

after finish my final exam....bt my frend forst me to go promnight haix he buy me tiket 4 me again== wat cn do must go..Ermmmm... myb i goin HK back leh after tat i go australia wit nico^^.... i rili cnt w8... haix i rili sad to leave all my frend at here... most sad to leave is her ~~... bt nevermind i knw she will not love anymore~~.. wat a sad feelling.. Myb tis time she will angry me more cuz i din tel her i'm going^^....