†akward†

kinda akward... ntg to say wit her
juz giv my damn smile.....
like ntg hapen...
I wish tat i will nt go tat place again...
to much memories and pain tat keep hunting me...
so so sad....

†relationship†

Every time walk out frm my house,
many thg will hapen tat i can see..
sum is hapi, sad n funny..

haix..
i dunno wat hapen to my fren nico,
juz a drink can start fighting wit his gf =.=...
weird man....
but at last thy behave again...
cuz i keep advice thm...
juz a drink... funny

mardy ar....
no nid to say see his face u will knw th answer,
he realy care bout grace... tat so sweat,
I juz sit n listen wat he feel bout her...
alcohol... ermm myb grace should stay away frm tat thg,
cuz it not fair to him... grace ask mardy dun drunk n smoke like me~.~
but why she did tat.... nvm i hope she will listen to her laogong..

why I msg ray din reply bak...
hmm myb he bz,
wan bring him ply game very bored at hum....
lucky 2day I bring nico out....
direct pokai....it ok nt owes....

he still exam tat nick cnt keep his phone away frm him...
haha.... msg wit new gf... gud lo aslong he hapi,
dun wory bout SPM sap sap water d la....

hmm... it been awhile.. myb  long tim edi..
I miss her so much...
myb grow taller le ^^....
more pretty n cute...
hope the guy she love will care her owes...~.~
dun wan ppl hurt her...
I cross my heart, if the guy hurt her i will find him till dead....
love is nt a game...

S_E     N_VE_R      _URT      _E      ^^

†U make me so desprate†

U knw tat i'm trying

†my brain brushting out†

I been thking to many thg....
bout me....
my family....
my frend...
everythg in my life.....
but mostly is about her,
myb I still.... nvm

I stop my skull last 2 month,
I less goin to chuch start last 2 month,
everyday goin sumwher like a stupid guy walking on the street....
so I start find a work.....
my family din knw, if my dad knw he will very angry with me....
if thy knw I wan to work...
so I keep my secret between me wit my few fren...

I try to make myself happy.....
enjoy myself....
haha nvm.... i saw my fren nico wit his beloved... make hapi...
i saw my frend mardy talking to fon wit his laopo.... I can his expression in his face
same like me laz time....
I saw nick face get new gf wow it amazing.... he lik cnt thk straight...
raymond wit his easy way to, cuz sum1 tat love him care bout him...
juz hapi for thm^^....

a million dollar can chg our life....
but 1 love can chg our heart beat...

†save me from me†

if u only knw the pain

†Bored of your love†

I remember you

†unexpected†

yesterday 2012 was great mv....
nvr expected i meet her at there..
I feel sumthg burning in my heart....
my heart feel very heavy....

I knw she in love with the guy....
I hope she will get the guy that she love...
there no more space for me in her heart...
memories....

sabrina n brian is cute...
make me hapi for awhile...
sabrina scare to meet me,
brian is very friendly...
meet her family realy unexpected...

put a big smile to her family...
say hi...

gudluck 4 spm

†matters of the heart†

I love but I hate her..... i owes be by ur side....

†I rili miss her†

I wish i can hug...

I wish i can kiss...

I hope so....

I rili love her so much....

†hun hun hun!!!†

u thin edi le..... slim liao abit....
dun care wat ppl talk bout u....
be urself...

trust me u slim le.....
ltr many liang zhai wan u d....
asking u go out....

†early mourning†

early morning.... like owes i do

†恩典之路†

hope GOD will help me owes owes..... i cnt stand anymore~~

†Who Am I To Say†

a hope..... dunno why i still waiting when the moon come and gone

†if the moon fall tonite†

tis song i dedicate to some1 that i realy love....

†never change†

I hoping u will never change, dun ever change

†better†

seem like getting better....
leave on my on way...
ntg to think everyday...
smoke and alcohol is like my food everyday....
nevermind...
she seem getting better with other guy she like...
hope she happy 4ever....

money, car or expensive thing...
cnt buy a love that we have...
but i share my heart and happiness to give what ever she wan..
pure love turn to dark...

†study†

~~i dun know how i get A1....

bt make me hapi^^...

my dad say if i fail, he ask me to stop skull...

and cont skull at australia...

he ask me to take LAW =.=

bt i say if i fail...

i goin to take music....

dad say ok...

bt must study LAW oso...

hmmm...

bt i feel wan go australia....

I wan change my life....

bt mum say if i go autralia no need buy new car 1st....

bt every 3month I got alounce...

ermmmm myb 10.000 dollor

haix....

want go or not ar.....

if I go myb I will change my life...

If I stay at here thing will never change....

More and more stress..

hmmm...

myb I better go...

stay with my cousin or Nico step dad...

hmmm hard to make dicision.....

i will be missing all my friend at here...

miss her toO...

I should go on....

Say goodbye...

tell me y u wanted to change...

tell me y u so nevours  to say...

I'll never 4get U...

U seem so happy now^^...

†Ni dao di ai shui†

I owes sing this wit frend in Pub....

†my heart like a fireflies†

I never able to say I love U....~.~

†It's all over†

I can hear your heart beating anymore......T.T

†Teddy†

today feel abit sad....

reading her blog, she like a heartless person...

and she seem happy with a guy he like now....

it ok I hope she will never hurt like last time...

today when i was cleaning my room...

I saw something ~~....

it was Mr. Ben teddy bear.....

she give when I birthday....

7day before my birthday...

I fell happy oso sad what she had done to me...

it not abit to much....

really to much....

it ok...

I can feel that she write her blog to me with full of hate to me....

I don't know what I had done wrong to her....

maybe it was my fault....

she seem so happy with the guy...

hope she happy...

happiness was just for awhile for me...

sadness was giving all to me...


Mr.BEn eat sandwich with his teddy bear all alone...
he cry when he was eating and looking all around...
and he say why this happen to me..
1st birthday he get his teddy from the person he love...
2nd birthday he get a sweet sandwich from the person he love...
so he cry and cry....
a beautiful lie to him,die with his hopeless heart..
he speak clearly to every people..
because a broken wing still can be heal...
but if a broken heart will denie everything
only God will jugde who was wrong and right...

†All I wanted†

i dun tell... gv they read my blog onli....
I will not touch u....
cuz we not meet le...
take care where ever u ar...
love the person who does really love u in future...
change your heart and u will know u mature or not...
think outside of the box not inside....
and it will change u everthing...
because outside there was very dengerous...
once u do same thing to them...
they will call u bitch = low price girl...
juz wan to tell, outside is very bad....
and some will dare do sumthing crazy outside there... same like I'm doin..
your felling and heart will make u more mature...
I know because I had been tru this b4 with a girl I really love...
I change all juz to be with her...

I love u so much..

†she still love him†

ntg to say... she still love him...
nevermind...
I will try to forget her...
I know she is not mind...
I cnt give anythg to her...
I cnt give a real love or anthing else...

love make me very crazy...
how wonderfull when it is the 1st time...
and it is the worst for the last time...
a broken heart will bleed forever...
because some1 I really love...
could't stay with me forever...
die romantic...

†I wory bout her†

I owes wory about her....

she owes sick leh...

I wish I will owes beside her..

take care when she sick.....

I love her so much...

hope she drink more water...

and eat medicine...

DUN drink to much got GAS de..

I love hun^^

will owes love you..

†heart†

Some people come into our life but she/he quickly go...

Some stay awhile,

make a scar

on our heart

we are never, ever be the same...

loving some1 is really hard.

why I'm stil alive but my heart deing,

for  some1..

love really cruel and heartless..

because when you love some1..

their is nothing in our mind

onli You and Me

in the dream world...

Don't let she/he down..

it really hard to find the person that really love us..

apriciate every second, minit and every moment..

Loving You Owes.

†party†

I love party.... rili hapi party wit my best frend....

in the same time... I oso thk about her...

i dunno y...

myb my brain got problem...

nevermind.... I knw this is hard for me...

I still loving her...

aslong she happy...

then I will owes be happy to her...

MY heart will never ever change...

SOoooooo......

let party so i can help myself happy....

I love U = Y33y33

†she sick†

she sick le... ystrdy she told me
i was very wory about her...
if i was beside her now...
i will tak k of her.. giv her medicine and drink more water....
I will cook 4 her....

I rili wory about her..
I love her so much...
but all I can do onli hear and watch her...
I will pray 4 u...
I will owes b by urside where ever u ar...
I love her more den my life...

†I beg and plead†

sumtime I try to beg her wit all my heart... but i fell emberessing ...
ntg to say.... i rili love her so much wit all my heart...
plsss i beg and plead... wit all my heart and soul...
i hope God will giv me a chance...
plsss... plsss...

†A letter 4 U†

Dear, Yeeyee

            this is the story of the 1st and the last time that i had fall in love with a beutiful, cute and complicated women who inhalf in my soul. I prety sure that you gona leave me  tomoro. When we were togethe their is many happiness that I had from you, it realy hard to understand what in your mind. You will owes be a women of my life, the onli man that I'm mv is the man that can win your heart that I owes believe that it my destiny to be that man. So we never each other again, when you out walking 1day and you feel something present beside you..... That could be me loving you where ever I'm

†separation†

when i close my eyes i think that you

stand in front of me, just as when we are first

quit alone after a long separation,

and have not yet kissed each other,

but stand and feel our breaths, and bodies

quietly touch each other, and feel beforehand

the kiss coming, and tthe whole world seems

full of cream, jam and dizzyness

there is no grief, no sorrow,

no despair, no languor,

no dejection, no dismay,

no absence scarcely can there be,

for those who love as we do...

†Yesterday, suden wan call her†

yesterday i go out whole day... nico N ray bring they gf.. it a sweet thing i thk so... we go 1b... I keep making they laught every time... I like see my friend owes happy.. they spend me many cuz I alone... but I dun wan... and suden my last time frm5 frend that admire me call me suden... they wan bring me out but i say I cnt... "cuz I with my girlfrend"..
then Nico angry say I very stupid... why got girl wan go out with u dun wan... then i say I dun wan toO... Haha how stupid is me...
Then i walk around leave my frend awhile... suden I saw 1 shirt wa very nice.. the word in the shirt is "DOn't trust girl"... I wanna buy but the size is XL... and i ask they say the shirt is last 1 edi... it ok, mybe God wan me to trust a girl^^... then i turn again I find 1 shirt so cool... red colour.. "killing ape is my habit", ape is monkey oo dun 4get.. I buy size M.. fit 4 me erm price Rm45.50 but discount 10% onli rm40.50... If like tat no nid discount...
after tat wtch MV till 7++pm... den home

In my mind I keep thk her... i say to myself should i call her ask anythg or say sory or anythg else.. I know she realy angry with me.. I'm very sory.. frm bottom of my heart.. i rili dun wan to hurt sum1 that i rili love...

at night we go out drunk N I smoke.... but 2day I rili control my smoke... i dun smoke to much... den raymond call kenneth come... he come den ask me to sing... ^^very shy... he give the song chinese song.. "my heart owes be with you" N 1 song is a " I miss u Baby"... they say i sing very well...
I sing with all my broken heart... den ray N my oth frend drunk le.... so faz==... onli 10botol for 1 ppl... So wierd ysterday i dun fell i drunk and most weird nico start smoke... i ask him why.. he say cuz about his gf... i dunno why girl owes hurt guy like us...

anyway I love U so much yeeyee frm me CoNaL..
take care owes just find me if need help,
I love u frend... erm actually love U more then friend haha..

†She Gone†

She rili love him ma... she rili love nicholas...
she rili want him... did she mean it...
I knw nicholas is better thn me...

†She hate me, Plsss I rili love U†

I knw she rili hate me le... i hope nicholas was better guy for her...
I had make my confecion with paster she knw wat hapen...

I rili cnt let her go..
I rili cnt let her go..
I will try so she will Be hapi with sum1 that love her last few month..
I saw her owes sit with him...
so hurt and unexpecteble...

from my deep broken heart i say,
I realy love you so much...
I realy love you..
I realy weak le..
I cry in my heart..
all the time..
I rili sad...
from my eye i looking at her...
there ntg can change my heart..
it been awhile...

I owes crying everytime when I write my blog to her...
it rili pain..
I will keep on writing even i was crying...
I try to chill my heart...
I try to stop smoke n drunk...
I try ooOO

†I make she angry†

myb i so ego wit myself..... i rili sory
myb i so stupid to myself... i rili sory
myb i not a better guy...... i rili sory

i rili sory hun...
but 1 thing is i dunno how to lie...
U know all bout me..
about my bad or gud habit...
sumtime i juz cnt let u go...
cz my heart already stick wit U...
i listen to the chinese song
"ni na me ai ta, wei se me pu pa ta lui sia"

plss forgive me wat i had done plsss

†she fell hapi ever after, n i wil sad 4ever†

she hapi jz 4 her... i fell sad on wat she done to me.. she fell nthg whn she wan to leave me... but i fell everythg in tis heart.. she jz slumber like nthg hapen between me n her in her life... but i rili sad

here another pity, there anothere chance
evrythg tat could't change...

†Already gone†

†Already gone†

†past is past†

everythg is past... everythg had hapen... everythg is gone...
she owes hasitate to be wit me, ntg can change

I'd never gone with the wind

Just let it flow

Let it take me where it wants to go

Till you open the door there's so much more

I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly but I couldn't find wings

But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I watched from a distance as you

Made life your own

Every sky was your own kind of blue

And I wanted to know how that would feel

And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see

You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Baby you showed me what living is for

I don't want to hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Crazier, crazier

in this heart i onli have her...

sum1 better kill tis broken heart..

cuz if it broken it will broke to a thousand pieces...

it hard to be heal...

sumthg stupid in the brain...
bt heart is not stupid as my brain...
sum kind of  love tat never cum truth...
1 thg tat i cnt 4gt is U
2 time U had broke my heart
3 word tat i owes say to U but U never say to me
4 me u is the onli 1
5 time u had change ur mind since u ask me to wait U
i cum to top jz catch u...
but whn i cum u never wait me at the top..
and now i alone on the top of the montain...
i saw everythg wat u doin frm the of the montain...
hoping tat u leave hapily at thr..
hoping tat u will cum to catch me back...
frm heart to heart..
frm eye to eye..
frm lip to lip...
i will mean it everythg...
i dun wn be selfish...
i will let u go for ur goodness of ur life...
i will help u even u ar not mine...

plss kill my sadness^6....

†Nothing else i can say†

I thk 8dot is speacial to me... it juz a lie,
the day tat she say to me... she tel me tat 8dot is very special
it juz 4me n 8dot was for us....

But now she change wat she say to me...

Nothing special but make me more hurt...

I hope she rili know wat she saying to me...

She lie...

She lie...

She lie...

I stil remember wat she say...

GoD 4give wat she have done to me...

Nothing else i can say...

I hope she realize...

I hope she rili go to chuch to praise GoD...

I never lie to her, i tell her everything wat bad of me and the gud of me...

I rili stupid, i tell my frnd bout tat 8dot... i tell thm she say is speacial 4me... even her bestfrnd oso knw but wat can i do....

nothing else i can say... nothing speacial 4me... juz a lie it juz lie

†Song†

I wish I hope that she know about this song^^
I try n try but i still cannot get what she wan..
I hope this song make she understand...

†Good N Bad about her†

Ermmm..... i start from the bad thing 1st, bad thing bout her, she easy belif wat ppl say n it more worst if she keep change her mind^^.... it rili hard to knw wat she thking sumtime i fell i belif to her bt sumtime it hard to belif, like sumthg tat cn fell in my heart tat sumthg wrong... But the good thg bout her i fall in love wit her haha... Did she knw tat i rili love her~~... nvm wat is hapen is after... haha i knw stupid my frend oso say me stupid^^... but even worst== thy say me not rili loving her....haix it ok, it between me n GOD onli knw wat hapen... i leave my heart to her, all she need to do is care for it^^....

†I'm goin†

after finish my final exam....bt my frend forst me to go promnight haix he buy me tiket 4 me again== wat cn do must go..Ermmmm... myb i goin HK back leh after tat i go australia wit nico^^.... i rili cnt w8... haix i rili sad to leave all my frend at here... most sad to leave is her ~~... bt nevermind i knw she will not love anymore~~.. wat a sad feelling.. Myb tis time she will angry me more cuz i din tel her i'm going^^....

†hapi to her†

^^she pass her law...very hapi du... i promise buy her cola light... ltr i buy 4 her... she cn gai2 use car le...^^

†I rili love u so much†

another turning point my heart stuck in the road,
time grab u by the rise direct to where to go,
so make the best stop n dun turn n ask me y,
it not a question but a lesson lern in time,
it sumthg not predictebel but in the end is right,
i hope u had the time of ur life...

so take the photograph n stil frame in ur mind..
hanging on the selfin gud health n gud time..
tattoo n memory in tat skin on trial..
the word is wort it was wort the awhile..
it sumthg not predictebel but in the end is right...
i hope u had the time of ur life...

"I'm Nothing Without U"

Give me all the sadness, I will give u all about the hapiness
I will take the bad from u, U can keep all the gud from me
Let me cry alone, but i wanna c u owes hapi
every minit n monent the time ticking, i goin weak
this broken heart will never repair without u...

†plss tell me that u love me†

i rili wn to knw that u luv me or not...
time is pressure..
if keep like this..
i will never knw that u luv me or not..


plss tell me...
plsssssssssss
plsssssssssssss
plsssssssssssssss......


moody mood...
it make me fell weak....
and make me keep thk..
hapi outside sad inside...
once it gone it will never come back...

†EMPTY 4EVER†

†I still love u†

In my mind still got u,

in my heart i still love u,

in my eye i telling the tru tat i weak without u..

eye to eye i looking at u,

i try to take u,

bt i been push away by u,

i'm sry wat i have done to u,

i rili care bout u,

maybe 1day u will find the tru

about u...

onli u

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†2day I sick leh†

^^myb i slp late laz nite.... bt it getting worst leh.. my head lik shaking.. sumtim my eye c blur2.. bt it ok i stil cn survive... aslong i survive i will still love her..